One day more without you by my side
It is actually kind of funny when your sufferment becomes bearable , Some people think this is the part when you have overcome the difficulties in the past that were the reason you were in the dark place where you stood at .
However it is my theory that resilence in the human being its not the capacity to overcome difficulties but to be strong enough to adapt to live with the problems you are fighting to resolve.
Every day that has passed throug the last month has been a new adventure , some times I miss you even more than the day before , and there are days like today that although you come to my mind pretty frequently , those memories are pleasant and a big smile is being drawn in my face while sometimes I can feel your fingers running through my back.
I have adapted , I am stronger , I got thicker skin. Sometimes my new armor falls down and I cry a few tears for the dream of some day being together again , then I realize that fairy tales normally dont come true .
Today I feel normal , I miss you , and in every sip of my morning cup of coffee I wish you were there so we could have coffee together and to hug you one more time.
Maybe after your eyes , there´s one thing that I miss the most .... your arms .Oh I really wish I could be wrapped around them just one more time.
Every day that passes will be a new adventure , and if I have survived the last month without you , I will keep on until I cant . Is my adapting process over ? Is this all the strenghth I have left inside of me? Maybe it is , and I wouldnt blame myself if it is , it has been quite enough so I can keep on breathing . You are not a reason anymore for me to stay alive , but I have a lot of goals that I will keep on fighting to make them come true.
I wouldnt say my adapting process its over . It is not . However I might be stucked in the part where my heart keeps on beating because of the future rewards. And my mind is still thinking about you , every day , every second ...
I wonder how are you doing... I guess you are happy since you are with the love of your life . You guys have already set a company together. Somehow , if before that you were inseperable now you are more than ever. I once told you that was going to happen some day , and it did . I really hope you are happy , that he makes you happy . You have no idea how much I wish I was him , the one you really love . I would wake you up with a tender kiss , with a cup of coffee by the nightdesk on the right side of our bed and I would have thanked God for another day by your side . I hope your partner does it better from what I would have done.
Indeed I have no idea if you are happy or if you are not , but I guess you are . And that is the only thing I ask everyday before I go to sleep. Your happiness . After all , that is the only reason I once accepted that it was time for me to leave.
Farewell.
Yours :
L
However it is my theory that resilence in the human being its not the capacity to overcome difficulties but to be strong enough to adapt to live with the problems you are fighting to resolve.
Every day that has passed throug the last month has been a new adventure , some times I miss you even more than the day before , and there are days like today that although you come to my mind pretty frequently , those memories are pleasant and a big smile is being drawn in my face while sometimes I can feel your fingers running through my back.
I have adapted , I am stronger , I got thicker skin. Sometimes my new armor falls down and I cry a few tears for the dream of some day being together again , then I realize that fairy tales normally dont come true .
Today I feel normal , I miss you , and in every sip of my morning cup of coffee I wish you were there so we could have coffee together and to hug you one more time.
Maybe after your eyes , there´s one thing that I miss the most .... your arms .Oh I really wish I could be wrapped around them just one more time.
Every day that passes will be a new adventure , and if I have survived the last month without you , I will keep on until I cant . Is my adapting process over ? Is this all the strenghth I have left inside of me? Maybe it is , and I wouldnt blame myself if it is , it has been quite enough so I can keep on breathing . You are not a reason anymore for me to stay alive , but I have a lot of goals that I will keep on fighting to make them come true.
I wouldnt say my adapting process its over . It is not . However I might be stucked in the part where my heart keeps on beating because of the future rewards. And my mind is still thinking about you , every day , every second ...
I wonder how are you doing... I guess you are happy since you are with the love of your life . You guys have already set a company together. Somehow , if before that you were inseperable now you are more than ever. I once told you that was going to happen some day , and it did . I really hope you are happy , that he makes you happy . You have no idea how much I wish I was him , the one you really love . I would wake you up with a tender kiss , with a cup of coffee by the nightdesk on the right side of our bed and I would have thanked God for another day by your side . I hope your partner does it better from what I would have done.
Indeed I have no idea if you are happy or if you are not , but I guess you are . And that is the only thing I ask everyday before I go to sleep. Your happiness . After all , that is the only reason I once accepted that it was time for me to leave.
Farewell.
Yours :
L
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